Thank you guys for the kind and sobering words yesterday.

The editor-in-chief of the media outlet I want to intern for wants to meet with me, but I’m still at college (4 hours away) until may. I asked if we could call (the initial plan) or Skype. Hire me!

I’ve been doing badly.

I said it.

I’ve been afraid to say it because I don’t want it to be true. But I’m having a really hard time with wrapping my mind around what’s going to happen after school. I’m being proactive in a lot of possible jobs and internships, but I’ve been worrying about it fairly often.

I’m most worried that once I choose a direction to go, I wont be able to back up, and it’ll be too late to turn around and create new possibilities. 

Anyway. Day to day, it’s fine, I’m not a fraction of how anxious or depressed I have been in the past. I’m just scared and nervous and worried. 

Any advice or stories about life right after college…. I’d love to hear them.
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Practicing for my passport photo. It turned out pretty boring.

I&#8217;ve had 3 cups of tea plus lots of water today. Trying to drink when I feel the urge to eat if I&#8217;m not really hungry. Fighting dehydration. Yas.

I’ve had 3 cups of tea plus lots of water today. Trying to drink when I feel the urge to eat if I’m not really hungry. Fighting dehydration. Yas.

Found some limp ass celery in the back of my fridge. Dang.

Found some limp ass celery in the back of my fridge. Dang.

4/3

Yesterday was a roller coaster- lots of ups, lots of downs. 

Today I generally started fresh. I went to 8:00AM class then to the ceramics studio to trim two things. I will go back at 2:00 and make some things. 

I emailed a guy about an internship possibility again today. I emailed him once, he answered, saying to let him know if I hadn’t heard anything more by the end of the week. So i emailed him the next Sunday saying I hadn’t. I got an automatic response saying he’d be out of the office until the 31st, this past Monday. So there was about a week where he was gone. SO I re-emailed today to get to the top of the inbox again. I really just need a contact or to be handed off to someone, but I feel super bad for badgering. 

I have a few intern options, but this is the one I’m the most excited about. 

Anyway that’s on my mind today. Trying to normal out. I have a lot of work to do for thesis and some other classes. 

I love being college-busy, but I’m really excited to find a job and internship. I know working gets nuts or boring, depending on what kind of person you are / place you work. But I dunno. It’s time. I want to spend a lot of time working. Around people, hopefully! We’ll see!

4/2

Hi guys, guess who’s the newest “Outstanding Mass Communication” student at her university! This girl.

Aw yeah.

I just downloaded an app called God Morgon. It is not originally in english. It’s an alarm app that I can use spotify with. I’m sick of my current alarm, which drives me nuts. It’s just really frustrating. And I really don’t like using alarms but it’s necessary if I’m going to make it to the gym in the morning.

I’ll let you know how it goes.

I don&#8217;t add anything to avocado when I put it on toast! I&#8217;ve tried salting, peppering and putting tomato with it as well, but I prefer it plain. At one point, like 4 years ago, my mom told me that Bridget B. (from her work) ate a whole avocado a day and that&#8217;s when I started eating it on toast. It&#8217;s one of my favorites. Nature&#8217;s butter. 

I can&#8217;t even imagine the texture of avocado plus cheese. All of the squish!

I don’t add anything to avocado when I put it on toast! I’ve tried salting, peppering and putting tomato with it as well, but I prefer it plain. At one point, like 4 years ago, my mom told me that Bridget B. (from her work) ate a whole avocado a day and that’s when I started eating it on toast. It’s one of my favorites. Nature’s butter.

I can’t even imagine the texture of avocado plus cheese. All of the squish!